Day 1057

I have had a very quiet day today, it has been lovely and started with a walk in the park with the pooch.  The weather was lovely as if the sun was shining just for me, telling me I was ok.  I don’t think there has ever been a more beautiful autumn day – although it was freezing cold.

I walked for a couple of hours reflecting this last week that has passed and the fluctuation of emotion I have experienced.  Yet today I feel free, relaxed and safe, so maybe this is now my true spiritual awakening. Whatever it is long may it last and long may I continue at this slow and considered pace.  I have put action in and now just have to wait on the results.

I was flicking through my amazon prime this afternoon and found the film Dont Worry he wont get far on foot.

It has to be one of the best representations of sobriety I have seen.  As usual it was American, they do seem so much open to focusing on this issue without making it a comedy or a deep dark story of demise.  You could genuinely see the recovery as the film developed and I don’t think I rolled my eyes once.

Then when it came to the end it revealed how it was a true story – well of course that makes sense. Again however how refreshing to just see someone struggle with their decisions in life and face up to them in order to get better.

All in all it again has been a weekend day with very little human interaction other than some text and phone calls. It is now Saturday evening and I am on my own, pooch is sound asleep and I am tapping away on my blog. I honestly couldn’t be happier.

Some would say that this too shall pass but today I am sober, warm, fed and content. How lucky am I.